avoidant attachment
Avoidant attachment is a mental bodyguard that stretches emotional distance to absurd lengths, examining warmth under a microscope. It places freedom and loneliness on opposite sides of a scale, though loneliness almost always wins. It masters the back-and-forth of embrace and rejection to skip the tedious ritual of deep connection. A tandem of longing and fear for intimacy endlessly repeats "I want closeness, but I don't want it."