grief
Grief is an infinite game of counting lost things while its tally multiplies with each effort to escape the past. It fills the emptiness in your heart with a debt that never matures. Sometimes it masquerades as noble self-reflection and at other times becomes a theatrical performance for strangers. It weighs heavier than reality itself, yet paradoxically serves as proof of one’s humanity. The only relief might be the privilege granted to those who master the art of turning it into laughter.