self-directed learning
Self-directed learning is a ritual of elevating solo effort to a virtue and calling personal study a matter of self-responsibility. Each time you create a study plan, you choose to walk through a minefield called the unknown. You ignore outside advice and monopolize the pain of failure to reinforce your self-esteem. While you can freely pick any materials, you also risk drying up in a desert of motivation. In the end, you chant the mantra “You can do it” while staring at your smartphone late into the night.